Exhumed Or Returned..They Always Come Home

two things that happened this weekend that pulls a community together.
1. they exhumed baby angels remains on friday. a toddler found beaten to death & burned nearly 30 years ago that needs closure. i pray they find her killer & this innocent baby can be laid to rest with her real name on a headstone. she deserves it.
2. matt maupin was shown on television with such strength & fear in his face while he was surrounded by gunmen with masks demanding the return of iraqi soldiers in exchange. he was too young to endure what he had to go through. he leaves behind a loving family, wife & son. along with a community that prayed for his safe return every day since his capture. i've worn his pin, with his face on it for 4 years, always hoping for the best but fearing the worst for this kid. finally, he can also be laid to rest with a headstone.
life is cruel.
later.

Fill In's

i don't really have anything. i just wanted to say 'hi' & tell you that we went shopping today & visited with nipper. i've spent most of my time playing, shopping, hugging & kissing with jammer. he's such an entertaining little guy. although, i don't think i've ever been asked soooo many questions in one day. he's really talkative when its just him & very inquisitive. he's also quite a story teller. you know how the chic in american pie always started her stories with 'one time, at band camp' well, jammers all start with 'one time, when i was a baby' & you know how cute it is for him to have so many stories from his babyhood when he's just barely 5? then in the next sentence he points out that he's not a baby...'you know i'm 5 now'. in such an 'oh so grown up matter of fact manner'. the funniest for me is when he uses big words that i can't believe he even knows at 5. he just tickles the crap out of me. mostly, we worked on his abc's & stayed up late watching movies, shopped alot, played some fishing & gave dog licks alot. and told each other how much we loved & missed each other. just grandma-grandson stuff.
i had a great weekend. how about you? was yours good? go ahead, you can drop me a line & let me know what you did. lurkers are welcome...lurkers...what a strange word to use for an open medium. makes it sound so ominous.
ok, i'm outta here.
later.

At Last!!!

for the weekend coming up i get jammer all by himself. i think this is to try & make amends for not having any kids for the last 3 weekends. it helps but by no means does it make up for missing him for almost a month. i've had some pretty horrific dreams involving him & i know this is because i miss having him near me & holding him close. i've literally felt lost without him. my grandmaness is suffering. i did get a really cool pic i want to share with you..

jammer does photograph really well, doesn't he? i love the tom sawyer look here. isn't he adorable? i'll be so glad to see him i could just shit myself.
we have a full weekend planned for him. i'm sure he'll talk me into buying him lots of toys & stuff too. he has that controll over me. i know i want to visit with nipper cos i haven't seen her in forever either & jammer loves her to pieces. except for her bulldog that he hates cos of her 'red eyes' his auntie is his favorite. she lives up on a hill that is full of things for him to investigate & he always walks away with quite a haul. aunt nipper spoils them all to death. i'm not sure the weather will allow him to do too much playing but he'll love the attention he gets all to himself either way.
i'm off for now. gotta be fully prepared for my big guy.
later.

Hopping Bunny Day

happy easter everyone. may the bunny not shit in your house, may you find all the eggs you hide so they won't stink when summer rolls around & may your chocolate be decalorized. have a great easter.
later.

Cannot Find Server

have you missed me? i bet you didn't even realize i haven't been on. i haven't been to any of my favorite blogs. i haven't checked any of my emails. i haven't googled one thing in almost a week. my isp server changed their message center & it affected the way my computer connected to internet explorer. i've been jonesing for the internet real bad. i finally had a minute to sit down & fix it. turned out i had to delete & reload my internet explorer which was no easy feat cos i had no connection. i can't honestly tell you what i finally did to get it working. i tried soo many things that i'm not sure what actually worked but needless to say....ray!!!! i'm back in business.
i'm still missing my big guy but i did talk to him on the phone & he told me i had to get out of my town. his exact words were 'memaw, your town is flooding, i see it on the news right now. please, get out of there. they're carrying doggies out & you know how mousey hates to be carried. i don't want you all to drown. get out of there, now!!!' i calmed him & explained we lived on the hill so we weren't gonna drown just maybe his bike would have to be chained to keep it from floating away. he's a very excitable child. can you tell? he was so sweet though, he wasn't worried about his bike, just his memaw, papaw & the dog.
i got my tired fixed too. i knew you would all be worried about that. driving on a doughnut is kinda hairy. i wonder why all our tires can't be made of that same durable plastic that lasts forever. yeah, its bouncy but damn those things last like the energizer bunny. they keep going & going.
tomorrow is easter. so happy easter to those of you that celebrate it. ours will be dull with no kids to entertain. i'm trying to get lucky to come up & have dinner with me just for something to do. easter was my mommys favorite holiday & we always made sure we all got together at her house. nipper is planning on doing a movie with her husband. mommy would have been having a cow about now unless she's planning on a movie about easter at a mom's house somewhere. that might have been acceptable.
NOT!
my sister pj & her daughter are in florida visiting with my step mom. thats the place to be. i'm kinda jealous. i'm sure she's gonna do a big dinner with all the staples like ham, potatoes, mac & cheese, probably corn & for sure deviled eggs. i doubt there'll be an easter bunny involved but church is a definite. it makes me feel alittle better knowing its raining in florida right now though, so even their egg color will be running. ain't i a bitch?

later.

The Ongoing Saga Of Bad Luck

damn, do you know how i hate cars? remember the cv boot sonny put on my car just a few weeks ago? it has since twisted into pieces & now has to be replaced again. i hate the idea of changing over the whole front axle but that looks to be the best way to fix it. at least to fix it permanently. i'm ready to start a petition to bring back the horse & buggy. do you think i'll have any signers? i think i'll dress in a bustled full length dress & tie up boots for show, wearing a corset, hat & carrying a sun umbrella for effect. i'll go knocking door to door & explain that here in the country we have fields going to waste because nobody has horses anymore & we should board our horses on those farms & fetch them everyday to hook up to our buggies for transportation to & from work. i'll give them some speil about how we can save the ozone layer by not shooting gas exhaust into our solar system & the whole world will benefit what with the traffic jams & global warming. shucks i can bring it down to being just a poor simple woman looking to save the world.
besides i think i'll look pretty good on a buggy. it may take me alittle longer to get to work but damn that horse if he can't make it i can just shoot him unlike a car you have to have towed home & then pay some outrageous mechanic to fix.
later.

My Ass Is Chapped

and in more ways than one. she (honey) pisses me off. the weather (mother nature) has the best of me. my car (cherry) is still fucked. (i have to make this another sentence cos i can't put fucked & god in the same sentence) (well shit, that just totally defeated my own purpose) and please (god) give me strength.
i haven't had the kid in 3 weeks. between the weather & money, sonny has decided to keep them home. (the reason they're giving me) truth is honey set up a meeting between ixxie & her biological father (like i need ixxie..just bring me my jammer) but noooo, i can't have jammer cos he's gotta go with ixxie. why? no good reason its just honey & her ignorant way of looking at things. she's gotta have things her way or she's just not happy. sonny goes along with her to keep the peace. i sure thought he had bigger balls than this but i'm delusional at this point.
the snow finally stopped after we got hit with 15 inches but now we're drowning with all the rain & its still so cold you can see your breath. as a matter of fact i hit a huge hole filled with rain that looked like it was filled with gravel. stupid me for thinking seeing gravel around the hole equals filled hole. i guess the rain washed the gravel out & thats what i saw on the road. i blew a valve stem on my tire with that one. i was lucky. i hit so hard it felt like i should have bent the rim. i thought when a coworker called to let me know my tire was flat that was what happened. i'm riding on a doughnut right now until i get the tire fixed. did you know they can replace a valve stem in a tire? i didn't. it was a pleasant surprise to what i thought was gonna be another major expense. although, my key is now stuck in the ignition so i have to use a club on the steering wheel until i can get to a locksmith to get the friggin key out. this week we have to park off grounds & i work in a bad neighborhood that you can't just safely park on the street & expect to find your car where you parked it. especially with the key in the ignition. i wonder how my insurance company will feel if i report my car stolen & then try to explain that the keys were in it. i don't think they'll find any humor in my situation. i doubt i'd be covered for that one.
so, thats where i stand this week. how about you? are you having a good week? i'm looking for stories to cheer me up.
later.