Pride In Success

i told you jammer has been learning to read. he's doing so well. every report he brings home is marked with exceptional on it. his teacher says he's doing work above his grade. report cards are being sent home next week & he's in the 'fab four' club for his distinguished work. doesn't that just tickle you? he's so proud & puffed that i think he's gonna bust sometimes. he called his great grandpa to let him know how well he's doing. he thanked him for the birthday card with the $6.00 he sent him. he explained how hard he was trying to learn to read & telling him how to spell some of the harder words he knows. he held his own in the conversation. the last thing i heard him say was 'i love you very much'. my dad told him how much he loved him back. i think he's bucking for more money out of this deal.

Leaving The Dark Side

we celebrated lucky's best friend passing her exam for broker's license today. She's been so stressed over homework for the last 5 weeks that even talking to her on the phone was wearing me out. apparently they chose her out of a class of 30 to get license. they gave her the books & 5 weeks to prepare. by herself. no teacher to watch, nobody to discuss it with, nothing but the books & her own determination to learn. she's a smart kid & wants to make something of herself. i'm impressed that she doesn't just want to sit around & do drugs like a lot of the kids these days. she got an 86 on it which i thought was pretty damn good. i invited her & lucky for dinner & told them i'd make their favorite: chili. i didn't mention i got her a brownie cake, balloon, ice cream & a few gifts like a bank to save her money in, a tote bag to haul her books in & a lunch bag to carry instead of brown paper bags. she was so tickled & it was all quite a surprise. we pulled it all off with her not being any wiser until we walked in singing 'for she's a jolly good sister'.
we've almost finished remodeling the bedroom so pretty soon i should be around a little more. painting the room with most of the furniture still in it has been slow. not only that the walls suck that paint in like a sponge. its taken 4 coats to get it the color i want it. serves me right for wanting a light color for a change. it was so dark in there you couldn't see anything even with the lights on. back when i decorated it, like 20 years ago, i was on night shift & spent my days catching up on sleep. i needed it dark then but for the last 10 years i've been on day shift & getting in bed at 10 pm instead of going to work meant the bedroom could be alot more vibrant. so i took down the darkening shades & actually opened the windows. when i did that you could see the cob webs under the bed & in the corners. yuck! you could also tell how dark the walls had turned from years of neglect. even my pictures hanging on the walls looked dark. it was ugly. now its a nice bright peach color & we're putting down white carpet! white, people! honestly, i never thought i'd be putting white carpet on my floor. over the years i've been given so many animal figures that i've stuffed in every corner i could find. now i'm thinking i can spread them out on shelves in the bedroom so they can actually be seen. when i'm done its gonna look like a mini zoo. very fitting for me. i found some really pretty giraffe print material that i'm gonna do a martha stewart button shades kind of thing. next i'll have hubby in a tarzan 'loin cloth' beating his chest & calling me jane. i've been watching painting shows on pbs & i'm thinking of adding a few vines & flowers. some of it looks pretty easy & really makes pretty decorations. we'll see.
oh, i almost forgot. in the middle of all this redecorating my friend shellbell brought me a laptop that was fried, so she thought, & asked me to see what i could do for it. its the first time i've ever worked on a laptop but i got it running in about 2 hours for her. i was so impressed with me that i did a giggle dance all around the house.
ok, i've filled you with enough bs for tonight. gotta finish my jungle room.
later.

Working Is A Way Of Life

sonny has been to see his lawyer. turns out he was overpaid in his child support. he now has grounds for a lawsuit against the state for his incarceration. and mojo is in for some pretty enlightening lessons on conniving & basically trying to fuck people over. i can't go into alot of details here but i sure wish i could be a bug on the wall at her place real soon. this lawyer is awesome & i don't say that often. the lawsuit against the state will probably turn out to be a class action cos there are so many men out there that have been railroaded. i'm not saying every man doesn't deserve what they get. having kids that you don't want to take care of is easy enough to avoid. use rubbers, duh! but i commend dads that try to be part of their kids life & abide by the laws. its just the laws out there need to be rewritten to take into consideration the differences that may apply to individual situations. its just not a 'one size fits all' kinda world out there anymore. this woman had a man raising her kids, paying their way while she sat home on her ass, enjoying the 'stay at home' mommy life & didn't think twice to make sonny aware that he even had 2 daughters he didn't know until she found herself divorced & needing to make an income. even then she took money from that man & let him go on thinking he was supporting his kids until he decided they should go through the courts before he got screwed in that process. to top that off she still didn't ever take it upon herself to get a job. she went to welfare & child support for more of a free ride. i don't understand how she can look herself in the mirror & not feel bad about the way she's manipulated all of their lives. those babies tried to explain to me how they had 2 daddies because they were twins but they didn't know daddy sonny until they were older cos their other daddy didn't know about him. poor mixed up kids. i sure do miss those girls & i'll be glad when its all settled. and you know, i contacted the state department to find out what rights i had to see the twins & they told me 'grandparents rights' didn't really apply anymore. they changed that law several years ago & there wasn't much i could do to even be considered in any kind of visitation unless i could prove that not seeing them was duress for the girls. thats just plain wrong! i know it's heartbreaking for me & i know the girls miss us too but how do you go about proving something like that?
you know, when i was a kid my mom got $25.00 a week for my sister & myself. that was $12.50 a piece. my step mom did her part of putting it to my mom when she started paying by the month cos she would make a check out for $100.00 a month not accounting for the 5th week at least 3 times a year. my mother was a single woman raising us & she needed every penny she got her hands on. but my mom never turned to welfare. she worked her ass off to make ends meet.
when sonny's dad died social security helped tremendously but i still worked!
its just not right the way this woman has taken advantage of every life she touches. i can't wait to see her get her just deserts!
later

Lindy, Thy Name Is SHIT

i've done it now. hubby is madder than a branded bull at me. i broke my computer. i had received a new video camera for xmas & after i loaded the drives for it one of the programs that came with it said it had to have directx 8 to run. big dumbie. i downloaded 8 & when it restarted my pc i had nothing but the a purple desktop. no icons, no start menu, nothing. then a box opened & said explorer caused an invalid page fault in explorer.exe. to the best of my knowledge there is about a dozen things you can do to fix this but the chance of any of those things actually fixing the error are about a ninety to one shot. well, i was in the ninety percentile. everything i tried told me it couldn't find my c drive to even fix it. i finally just formatted my hard drive & reinstalled the operating system. you'll notice the date on this is wwaaayyy back in feb. & here we are going into the 2nd week of march. i've had the pc running again but i had to start from scratch. i've been working on it for the last few weeks trying to get it back to where it was. i've finally given up on reloading all the shit i had on it & just leaving it bare bones for now. mostly so i could get back to this post & start writing again. if you want to call my occasional ranting anything akin to writing. anyway, my virus protection no longer supports us & the first thing i had to do was find a new one (& i wanted a free one that was worth a damn). i'm still experimenting with them cos i'm not happy with the one i have. it runs constantly in the background & slows the pc down way too much. while you're trying to open a page you have to go to tools & allow it as a safe site before the antivirus will allow it to even open. this is taking way too long. what i've decided to do is remount my backup hard drive & transfer everything back onto my new re-formatted hard drive. that will almost put me back where i was. in the mean time i've been saving as much of my pictures & documents as i could. for now, i'm just waiting to take a mini vacation. i can't get diddly done with the kids around. that kinda makes weekends worthless as far as the resuscitation of my internet life as i knew it. i've put in for thurs & friday off from work a few weeks from now to do the deed. so, i'm back for now but just barely.
later.

Total Rewind

i spoke too soon on more issues than just one. for starters it snowed again yesterday. it started about 3:30 in the afternoon. its been snowing off & on every since. i don't know whether to hate mother nature or the groundhog at this point. i think both. it looks like we're in for a week of dustings & cold windy days. if you can believe the weather people.
on the other issue, honey got on the phone with sonnys' lawyer & he started making calls on thursday. i guess on an all day call to the prosecuting attorney he started throwing the words law suit & charges around & got the county worried. after doing some checking they discovered their so called 'dead beat dad' was actually overpaid in his child support. let me tell you they couldn't get him out of their jail fast enough. sonny said they called him to the office & begged him to call for a ride home. honey got there with about 800.00 bucks thinking she was gonna have to do a 10% bond but NO! they let him out on an O.R. meaning he just signed himself out with no money needed. isn't that amazing? wonder how they could have made such a mistake? with the mojo & her friend, who worked in the office of the child support bureau, conniving the way they did i wonder if his payments weren't doctored until they looked a little deeper. of course, sonny being the thorough receipt keeper that he is made for small work of whatever damage those two bitches cooked up. thank god he takes after his mommy & hangs onto things like that.
jammer turned out to have one of the best birthday presents he could have ever wished for. sonny said he jumped 4 feet to his arms when he saw him. jammer called me & was so excited i almost couldn't understand him. we extended his birthday to his birthweek. he got to have a party at school & we had a party here for him this weekend. i dressed up as a clown & served up cake & ice cream. i haven't uploaded the video or pics yet but as soon as i do i'll let you see. everyone laughed when i came out. i don't know if that was because i looked so stupid or it was a great idea. i just know i want jammer to always remember his birthday parties & how much his memaw loves him. i know i'm making impressions that will last the rest of his life. even when i'm gone he'll smile when they talk about his birthdays & maybe his heart will swell a little remembering how much memaw was a part of making those memories. we took him shopping on saturday & let him choose 3 gifts, no holds barred. he also got to choose his own cake & the theme this year. star wars. i remember his daddy choosing a star wars birthday. honestly, its a deja-vu life i have. would you have ever believed that would still be popular this many years later?
so, after all, it turned into a great week for everyone. and my big guy is now 6 years old. getting too big-too fast. i hope y'all had a great week too.
later

Doing Hard Time

it's time for good weather & i mean now. i need to get out of this house & walk. i need to get vitamin d from the sun & fresh air.
i need to start building my personal time off at work back up. i can't do that with all this nasty shit going on. course, it doesn't help that i don't want to make that hour trip every day either. i want to retire & start my own business. my dream is to buy property & build a huge workspace with work benches all along one wall so i can start a computer repair business. on the other side i want to build a greenhouse so hubby can start a nursery. flowers & computers are the next generation. everyone always wants flowers & there will always be people that are too afraid to open their computers. this is my dream so please don't shoot it down. i've taken into consideration that computers are just getting smarter & i may not be needed but its a dream!
thursday is my grandsons birthday. he'll be 6 years old. i'll be having a party for him this weekend. one that i'm sure we'll always remember as probably the worst birthday he's ever had.
you see, his daddy won't be attending. they have him in holding at the grant county detention facility for child support. they just took his income tax return in july of 08 in the grand total of 10,000.00. yep! you read that right: ten thousand dollars. but thats not enough. see when he found out about the twins they were already 2 1/2 years old. and although they had another mans last name & he had raised them as his own. supporting them while the mojo lived the life of luxury as a stay at home mother the child support bureau decided that sonny should be accountable for them from birth. making his arrearage payment something like 11,000.00 dollars. the guy doesn't have a chance of ever catching this crap up. now they have tacked another 9300.00 dollars onto him. honestly, i don't know how men are expected to make ends meet when they have other children to support. it would be different if this woman had let him know he had these 2 babies & he ignored his part but he was clueless until the warrant was issued to have him take a paternity test. sneaky frekkin woman was happy go lucky as long as someone was supporting her & the kids but as soon as that was cut out she went looking to see who else she could get to support her sorry ass. and thats what this is all about. its not the kids that he's supporting its her. you should see the difference in her from when i first met her till now. she was a mousy brunette with pimples, splotchy skin & floppy t-shirts. now she's flaunting highlited tips in her hair & makeup out the wazzoo wearing designer jeans & christian louboutin shoes! when i was still getting the twins they had torn clothes & no shoes have the time. i know you hear about the mothers being bitched about in every child support case but i feel sorry for these kids. they get dumped onto anyone that will babysit them while she runs around in the bars. hell, if she hadn't been whoring in a bar in the first place she wouldn't have gotten pregnant. raise your hand if you really believe a bar is the best place to find a new father for your children.
i'm thinking of forming a group to fight for the rights of fathers that aren't dead beat dads but still getting screwed by the system. there are differences in every situation & that should be taken into consideration instead of one law fits all. if you're gonna put the dads in jail then they should put them in a work program & make them pay all the money they make into child support. otherwise what are they accomplishing by putting them in jail? its not like they can pay support while they're locked up the way the system is now. its just redundant.
maybe a clown at the party will help. where do i find floppy shoes?
later

Happy Dance

YEAH!!! i'm alive! i can see earth again. the snow is alll gone & we're getting back to normal around here. we did lose power for awhile. thankfully i'm not one of the unlucky ones that still doesn't have power. all together i think we wound up with 11 inches. i missed a whole week of work & then 5 hours the next week. theres still piles of snow everywhere. dirty, nasty, tall piles of ugly snow. trees, telephone poles & lines are down everywhere. its been the winter from hell and that stupid groundhog saw his shadow again. if you believe that shit.
who's idea was that? pulling a groundhog out of his hole to check if he see's his shadow? how crazy is that? i think the person who thought that up had issues with groundhogs. what the hell could one little groundhog have done to someone to make them go crazy enough to want to drag one out every year & blind him with lights? i'm leaning towards jealousy. plain ole jealousy. groundhogs get to sleep the whole winter away & someone said to themself, 'if i can't be lazy & sleep in to skip winter then that damn groundhog is gonna suffer at least one day with me'. too bad that groundhog didn't eat him up to stop that tradition.
y'all been doing ok? i'm getting ready to cruise my peeps & see whats been going on.
damn, its good to be back!!!!
later