Like Shit...Birthdays Happen

Today is a day that I try to overlook.
If I can.
I try not to answer the phone, I don't check email, I take the day off work & I don't open my door so I don't have to listen to EVERYONE telling me happy birthday cos frankly...it's not. My family, they know the date. They know my age. They know how bad I hate birthdays. Doesn't matter. I can't really get away from hearing the dreaded birthday song. I try. I want to just lay in bed & let the day go by without coming out from under the covers. But some people just refuse to allow me that luxury. They insist I'll want to hear from them. They're wrong. But I'm nice & allow them their illusion that I really just hold my breath until I hear from them.
Get the idea?
I hate birthdays!
It's just another fucking day that I ache & make myself keep going. It's better than the alternative, right?
I'm going back to bed now.
later.

The Bitch Is Back

I"m baAAck.....what the hell....you didn't even notice I was gone, did you? I know, I know. Way too much going on in everyone's life to miss some dorky bitch that writes about her waa waa life & her grandkids. (Which by the way are growing up on me) But seriously! It would've been nice if just one of you had missed me. Or thought about me for that matter. Did anyone try emailing me? Or visiting my Facebook page to see what I was up to? Would it have killed you? What kind of friends do I have anyway?
Wow, that was nasty. Where did that come from? I think my crazy just kicked in. Well, it is 2 am & I'm sober. So, yeah, I'm a little cranky.
Nah, just kidding. Sober doesn't faze me anymore. I quit drinking over a year ago. So, let me start over for reals now.
Hey All! I'm baAAck! And when I opened my blog last week & started going through my side bar of blogs I was really amazed at how many of you aren't as lazy as me. You still have a blog that you actually update on a daily basis. Some of you have gone on to write books, changed partners or just omitted one, had babies, moved to other states & in one case, just like me, quit blogging only to come back in full force....lots of changes. And as they say 'life goes on'.
So, anyways, watch for me to start ranting again. Cos yeah, my life has been going on...and on!
later

P.S. AND BTW
Happy New Year Everyone!!! May It Be The Best Year Ever!