Sunday, August 21, 2005

Waiting To Exhale to speak. sonny called this morning to let me know that he and honey drank together last night. you don't know this but thats bad news... always means a fight.
ixxie stayed home this weekend due to doing poorly in school. (she's had 7 days of school & has brought home 2 letters already. she's given 6 stars a day & for everything she fucks up she loses a star. she's managed to lose 24 of her 30 stars for the past week.) i'm sorry she has to see her mommy & whoever she's gonna live with fight. its a sad fact though. i don't see honey & sonny making it as a couple. she's gonna wind up with some other man. who knows, but i know he won't bow down to her & the stupid things she wants to fight about. every man needs a woman that isn't gonna try to be his mother. he asked me this weekend how old he was when i stopped covering his eyes for the naked scenes in tv. hell, i gave up when he turned 15. by then, i knew he had hidden books & besides if you have a good looking son you gotta know some woman, somewhere out there, is gonna throw herself at him. i had to actually drag some of the little teenage girls out of his room when it was time to go to bed. he was allowed to have company sleep on the couch but not in his room. my rule was i would not give him a place to procreate. he had to supply that on his own. but i can think of at least 3 girls i had to literally ask to remove herself from his bedroom. one i threw clear out of the house & one i told if i caught her off the couch again, she was out the door. honey has made the mistake of thinking she can control him. make him do things the way she wants them. she wants to change him. how many women have tried & failed? i'm not saying he won't compromise but he's 30 years old now & is kinda set in his ways. unless you can give him a reasonable argument for making a change he's not gonna concede. her demands are just way out there. i mean, what 30 year old isn't allowed to watch a naked woman on tv? isn't that a little too much to ask? you can't hardly watch a movie without a little t & a. at his age, he's seen & done pretty much what he wants to do as far as women are concerned & i can't believe she thinks she can limit him to looking at only her. he's tried to keep the peace by making a visible effort to look away when something shows up on tv. but this weekend they sat down to watch a movie that they rented & when it turned out to have naked women in it she ttthhhrrreeww her fit. i think the movie was 'house of a thousand corpses' for gods sake. they were dead women & she had a fit. how sick is she? that sonny looking at dead bodies might excite him to the point of checking out another woman with lust in his mind. i mean, a dead woman? does anyone else think thats just a little too insecure?
as often as he tells me he doesn't love honey i have to believe someday he'll find someone he does love & will have a happy home life for my grandkids & himself. i hate to know the kids get to witness the fighting. i can see sonny taking his son from her & moving on. (it's not fair to make that judgement, i know, so please don't chew on my ass over that statement.) sonny has worked hard for everything he has. he loves his son & all the girls. he'd take ixxie if he thought he could. he's always given 100+% in his relationships & deserves to get the same in return. he just wants to live a nice, decent, calm life, with a happy, normal woman & raise healthy, happy kids. i don't think that unreasonable.
i pray that god sees it that way too.
gotta go,

Monday, August 15, 2005

Doing My Homework

haha... i finally figured it out. not too stupid after all. it only takes reading a little bit & making sure the pic isn't too big. i think all along that was my problem. the pics were just too big. anyway, on the left we have 'honey, sonny & jammer' down low introducing 'princess ixxie'.
later for now & more to come.

A Dime A Dozen

men that think they're smart. stupid drunk, not thinking, idiot. take a guess who i'm talking about.
sitting on the floor wrestling with jammer (a 2 year old). jammer runs at him like he's done a thousand times. like the thousands of times he's done with his dad & any other man that wants to play rough with him..sitting with his back to the television set. jammer runs at him again, fists clenched, grinning from ear to ear. he's sure he's gonna get him this time. jammer even warns him that 'i'm gonna git you' with his eyes twinkling. what does the idiot do? he leans over just before jammer gets to him leaving jammer flying into the television set behind him. slamming full force. hitting every piece of his body hard against the damn thing.
yeah, this is a smart man. try to explain to me how someone with an above average...almost genius i.q. thought that one up. and please tell me again how he was always put in the gifted classes & how he aced college. yeah, whatever. theres a fine line between a genius & an idiot. my hubby is that fine line.
i hate boys play fighting. but nobody will listen till someone loses an eye.
at least thats what momma always said.

Thursday, August 04, 2005


did you know there is a new disease? a disease just for bloggers. something about blog exhaustion. not only can we get fired for our blogs, now we can even get depression over blogs. i wonder, does my hmo cover this? this is getting to be way too stressful worrying about what blogging can get you. heck, i thought i was doing it to relieve my stress. do people really take this thing that serious?
i've read blogs that one day, just went dead. if you read the comments afterwards, sometimes they actually fight, like the 'whatever happened to baby jane' kinda thing. they argue back & forth about they were dead or arrested, lost their jobs or fell into some pussy hole.
i totally think sometimes bloggers just leave you hanging to see how long or how often you'll check back on them & how many comments they may get for some post. for the most part i think some of them just get tired of whatever lie they've been building on & get tired of being the writer they thought they were. tired of coming up with new 'chapters'. sometimes i think they just start up another blog on a new subject . i see alot of writing that resembles each other in style & phrasing. the funniest thing is they all link to each other. now, you have to admit there are lots of bloggers out there. it's kinda strange when you happen to check out a few bloggers that just happened to find all of the same blogs & link them to their sites. especially when all of a sudden they all stop blogging right around the same time or even weirder when they all start blogging again at the same time.
its just strange the way the web works. well, the people on the web is what i mean. you could do some research & probably find out almost anything you want to know. but to be a blogger & to read certain blogs, you just have to relie on a persons integrity...around here we call it the honor system. whether what they tell you is the truth or not, all lies on them. i really miss the ones i read when they quit posting completely. and until i hear from the ones that take breaks i worry. either way i wanted to tell you i may get lazy about blogging. sometimes hubby beats me to the pc so often that i feel like a stranger when i sit down to the keyboard. sometimes i've just been so busy at work that when i get home the last thing i want is to look at another monitor. whatever, there will be times that i won't get to post for whatever reason. but i promise if i ever get tired of blogging or i find that happy place for me where i don't need to blog or i can't tell you where i am. check me out cos something is wrong (dementia?). i'm gonna give someone the password & a link to this site just in case something happens to me. that any friends who read me will know exactly what happened to me.
heaven forbid cos i want to blog for alot of years.
cheers to missing friends.