The Office

if you've been wondering, this is whats up in my world. we've been building on this for about a year now. honestly, i wasn't sure it would ever be done. they started talking about all this 6 years ago but had to acquire the funds first. once the powers that be got the notion they wanted to reopen the old entrance it was on. we've made a lot of budget cuts & talked up alot of sponsers but viola': there it is. and the best part about all of it?
MY NEW OFFICE : right there... where the arrow points. thats my window. that turret on the left is over my shoulder & supplies so much light that the auto lights in my office kicks off cos it can't see me moving. there's a small table for conferences right there & i have the printer over my left shoulder. its all so convenient & wonderful & beautiful & new!!! the turret on the right is a huge kitchenette/conference room & all the space in between is storage. we have our own bathroom that i don't have to work my way through members to get to so they won't ever know again when i have to 'go'. its air conditioned & it works! unlike the heating/air conditioning in the old office that you could never get right. i just love it. i feel like a queen. and for my new office i'm getting a new do. remember i started buying new clothes last week? ahhhhh, i'm living the good life.

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What A Small World

i got a wild hair & called nipper this week. usually we just email but i wanted to hear her voice. i miss my sissy & she's a great person. i think its something to do with being at the hospital. it makes me want to reach out & touch my family. she's been as busy as a one armed paper hanger since her company cut back on staff. don't you hate that they can add 7 jobs to your job description when they do their money saving cutbacks? she was telling me she went to an
appalacian festival on sunday. while perusing the crafts she noticed a booth that spouted owsley county quilts & recipes. my dad is from owsley county so she stopped in & was looking through the crafts offered by the little old lady that ran the booth. finally the lady walked up to her & asked if she could help her. nipper was reading her recipe book & i think she thought nipper was memorizing them. she is pretty frugal like that. nipper told her no she was just reading
her book because her dad was from owsley county. the woman perked her little ears & asked nipper who her daddy was. afterall, we're talking about a population of less than 5000 & this old lady was older than dust. so nipper told her she didn't know for sure who her daddy was but he was supposed to be pt from owsley county. (nipper didn't really say that but we got a big laugh out of the thought) well, lo & behold the old lady did know daddy. as a matter of fact she turned out to be his 2nd cousin twice removed. how does that happen? like i said, its a little county & i swear i think everyone is related to each other one way or another. turns out lucy mays, the little old lady, has heard of us. apparently, she is still in touch with my aunt, daddys sister, who talks about pt's 'girls' all the time. my aunt does love us. nipper & i are the only two that visits her regularly. she's the greatest aunt in the world. you can't leave her house without an armload of goodies. last time hubby & i were there she tried to give us boxes of canned food. back to lucy mays, she does her crafts while chatting with the women folk of the county & advised nipper that its time for us to visit with our aunt again. she misses us & her health is failing. a few years back she was diagnosed with diabetes & has to take insulin. we did know that & we got one up on ol lucy mays cos she didn't know my uncle is also diabetic. after lucy mays filled nipper in on her family she hugged her newfound cousin goodby as she removed the recipe book from her hands. it really is such a small world after all.
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Belated Mothers Day

i forgot to post for mothers day. damn, i'm a bad blogger. how do you forget to post for something as important as mothers day? and i'm a mother! mother fucking poor excuse of a mother if you ask me. not that i forgot my mom on mothers day or my mother in law for that matter. but i forgot all of Y-O-U. so, happy belated mothers day from one sorry piece of shit for an excuse of a friend. i hope you all had a wonderful mothers day, received fabulous gifts & fountains of lovings from all of your children. i hope god granted you sunshine & rainbows & your husbands flourished you with love & praise for all your worth. and that goes for dads that are mothers too. only i hope women on you, literally.
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Life Is Truly Precious

we had gone shopping over the weekend. we needed oil & antifreeze for the car so we wound up at walmart. while we were there hubby mentioned that i needed some summer clothes so i might as well shop to see if i could find anything i wanted while we were there. i know! i couldn't believe it either but i definitely jumped on the offer. that he was in the mood to wait around & actually let me shop made me suspicious but damn, i went for it all the same. i found 3 pairs of slacks that i liked & one top. when i got home i tried them on again & we (he was the one that convinced me) decided they were really too big & i needed to get a smaller size. (yeah for me) on monday we decided to exchange them so as soon as i got in from work off we went.
the phone was ringing when we walked back in. hubby's dad had fallen & nobody could get him up (mum is a little tiny woman & baby bro, the painter, isn't much bigger) remember dad has been diagnosed with cancer & is in the advanced stages of the disease. so we waited on him until he was ready & as soon as he was up to it hubby & i raised him to his walker. he made it to his chair to sit for awhile but he wasn't feeling right. mum talked him into agreeing that he needed to go to the hospital so we carefully walked him to the car. mum called right after they arrived & reported that dad had suffered a mild heart attack sometime that day & a full blown seizure as soon as they arrived at the hospital. he was stabilized but they were keeping him for the night. little did we know that this was the beginning of a nightmare. tuesday night dad suffered another heart attack. this one was much more damaging & he's now left with only 15% of his heart functioning. he actually died. his heart had stopped beating & he wasn't breathing. it took them a half hour to bring him back & his ekg wasn't show much brain activity. they didn't have much hope. they had him pretty doped up & by morning he was holding his own. his brain activity was picking up & he seemed to be fighting with all his might. he woke up finally on thursday with hubby there by his side. he tried to communicate as best he could. what hubby got from it was dad wanted him to yank him off all the connections to go smoke a cigarette. nothng like pounding a few more nails in your coffin. he's been so doped up that he mostly slept through the next few days. friday night the hospital staff called & his heart rate was up somewhere near 19o beats per minute. it should be around 80. they had the crash cart in his room waiting for something to happen. it finally settled down on its own but they've kept the cart in his room just in case. finally sunday mum called & dad was awake & for the first time was asking where he was & why. he didn't have any recollection of the last week. today they are talking about letting him go home in the next few weeks. he's off the ventilation machine but his heart is still too weak for much. i don't think we'll have him for much longer on this earth.
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Offerings

hey all, i'm a bad blogger. how many times have i told you that? but i am so sorry i haven't been around. i think i've missed some important events & maybe hurt some feelings. its not cos i don't love ya'all. its truly money burning a hole in my pocket. this old pc of mine is so slow. it just takes forever for some blogs to load & god forbid i want to watch an utube video. i have to wait forever & let it run through once or all i get is bits & pieces. i want a new computer so bad i can taste it. i've been shopping for one that is worth my money. i'm not rich so when i got hold of an extra $500.00 all i could think was this is my chance. i have to watch sales & pick the right one cos its gonna have to last the rest of my life. pretty soon i'm hoping to find the perfect pc just for me. something else i'm gonna have to do is go for faster internet connection. one of the things i have done in the last week is visit my library. i want to know about networking & setting that up. its something i'm completely stupid about. you know, my library doesn't have a networking for dummies book. i did get a few networking books but those are so easy to learn from. i was disappointed. i've also been trying to do some redecorating in the house. which hasn't been easy with working every day & having the kids on the weekends. i just don't have enough time to get everything i want done in a day. we finally did get everything back in the bedroom & the curtains made & up. i had to wait for a paycheck to get the ceiling paint which we finally got last weekend. i have to rely on hubby to do that cos i (a. can't reach (b. can't paint (c. have to work.
so, i promise i'll be back with a vengeance once i get all this shit together. just be patient with me. in the meantime, i've found a few things i think might make up for both my lack of posting & visiting. this is one i think some of ya'll will love & this is one i just love . check them out & let me know what you think.
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Greetings

'Happy Easter' everyone! even without the kids we still did the ham & potatoes along with the boiled eggs. i just didn't color them. but it was a good lazy day & ms. m is tickled pink with her bone.
hope ya'all had a great day, too.

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Paying The Piper

even though there's soon to be a lawsuit regarding the twins i emailed mojo to request she meet with me to give the twin xmas gifts that they still have to get. isn't it awful that she won't let us even give them the gifts we bought for them? of course, (and i didn't expect anything different) she never responded. BEYOTCH!! but soon, i just need to be patient. not my best quality i assure you. but i'm doing my best 'hang in there' impersonation. i miss my girls so much. the only way i get to see them is by visiting her 'my space' page. she posts new pics occasionally & i get to see their smiling faces there. i guess if she knew i had her page saved she'd probably quit posting there. and just to reiterate again: BEYOTCH! i can only hope someday someone takes a loved one away from her & refuses to even acknowledge her existence in their life. paybacks are a mother fucker & i hope she gets hers. of course, pretty soon sonny will be socking it to her so i guess i shouldn't feel this way. but not getting to see my granddaughters is really taking its toll on me.
the devils gonna take me to hell for the way i feel about her.
its easter weekend. i called about the kids today & honey informed me that her dad was having an easter party & they were taking the kids to him this weekend. that really ticks me off too. i can't tell you how many times i've been told how honey hates her father. he's never been there for her & he hates my son. i just don't get it. the less you do for them the more they love you? the thing that really pisses me off about this is they didn't bother letting us know ahead of time. i had to call them today to find out they weren't coming. after we bought easter goodies, i might add. someone just needs to smack me.
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