Profiteers Ain't Got Nothing On This One

are you on a prescribed medication? one that the dr. put you on maybe cos you were just over the accepted 'safe zone'. maybe its your blood pressure or cholesterol. maybe its pfd or some other periphial defunct. jeez, maybe its just migrains. don't you just hate it that someone else has control over your staying healthy? i like to walk & i try to eat right but i guess some things we really don't have much control over. my grandmother had diabetes & my mother had lung problems. that puts me at risk for one or the other. maybe both. i'm not good with keeping up with my pills either. sue me. i forget to take them. birth control was another thing that i couldn't keep up with. i'd remember to take them for a month or two but sometimes life just gets too full & my brain forgets things. hell, i still forget to pay my insurance payment by its due date & thats something i've been doing for what now? about 20 years. but...can someone tell me how important that med is if the dr won't renew your prescription unless you make an appointment to come see them first? even though you may be out of that prescription they refuse to fill it again until you spend that friggin $25.00 for a visit. and thats if you have insurance. do you know how many people out there isn't covered by some insurance company that pays most of that dr's visit? my dr was doc holiday until he got a better offer. we had an understanding. i'd follow his orders & he'd see me once a year. with hubby not working & mine the only income dr visits are a must that i can't afford any more often then necessary. necessarily he figured he needed to see me at least once a year. necessarily my budget was fine with that. i was fine with that. since both hubby & i are on a few different meds between drs visits & medications that shit adds up. since doc holiday went to teach up & coming drs a woman dr took over his patients & let me tell you i have had more stress over this woman than anything i've ever dealt with in my life. she absolutely refuses to give me any thing more than a 3 month prescription. thats 4 visits a year & hubby is another 4 visits. that means we've gone from a reasonable $50.00 a year for the both of us to a whopping $200.00. tell me she isn't money hungry. i've explained to her that i can't afford her requests & she stubbornly insists that if i want to live i'll manage. easy for her to say she works for a profiting organization. and she makes mega bucks by making her patients come see her every 3 months. if she has 40 people a day at 7 days a week & makes us all see her every 3 months at $25.00 a wack no wonder she has the arrogance to tell me i'll manage. if i made that kind of money i could manage an island in the carribeans too. and i wouldn't mind paying her the $25.00 on top of it. i also would like to point out that if you run out of that med & you have to wait a week to see her the med is out of your system anyway. how much sense does that make? what good could that possibly be doing you? isn't it bad for you to stop something cold turkey like that? seems to me that that could bring on attack that just might kill you anyway. needless to say i'm in search of a new dr. i know, i know. two people off her list just means she takes on a few more that she can bully around but by golly it won't be me. and i'm fine with that too. if anyone living in my area knows of a good dr that at least applies common sense...see me. otherwise i'm off my meds & that doesn't make for a healthy me.
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Going With Rhymes

we were rhyming words & hubby threw out orange. jammer immediately yelled 'moranges' to beat his sister. we giggled & looked at each other for a minute. finally, i said, 'jammer, i don't think thats a word. what does it mean?' he said, 'more oranges, its a word!' he didn't even crack a grin. he almost has me convinced.
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Eye Makeup Or Not

american idol is back! RAY! i love this show. the courage it must take for some of these young kids to step into that room & make total asses of themselves! the strength to take the criticism that the judges deal out & the faith in themselves to reach for their dreams! i actually get all teary eyed over some of these kids & their tragedies. it seems like so many come with some terrible story. they have a special needs child that having this break will make all the difference in their life or they grew up on the streets with nobody to care about them. i don't think the back story really has a lot to do with their success. in the end its the people that choose them & by that time the stories are all but forgotten. i do tend to lean toward the under dog. you know, the ones that come in with some backstory that just tears your heart out & just barely gets past the judges but the more you listen to them the better they sound. thats who i vote for. i've really only voted a few times & i've watched every season. i vote when i think the underdog is being swamped by the one that the judges have deemed their star baby. you can always tell which one the judges want to see go to the top. throughout the show they can't seem to find anything their chosen one can do wrong & i think all that bragging sometimes is the only thing the viewers hear. for example, kris allen & adam lambert. remember them? i think kris was a much better singer than adam but with so much previous exposure & experience the judges couldn't find any fault with adam. so much glam compared to so little fluff. now that they've both put out albums i love kris' work & adams sounds just like a whiny boy toy to me. what do you want from me? pfft. please. i want a frekkin song that doesn't sound like begging someone to like you. geek.
too much to ask? i think not.
so on with the show. i'm looking forward to this season & who's life i can change forever!
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After The Yule Log

we just got home from christmas dinner with my in-laws. had a great roast dinner with all the trimmings & exchanged gifts. the first christmas since dad passed away. it was hard on mum but she's a tough lady. the best thing is her new granddaughter, k-boo. she's a blessing. i'm not so sure mum could be so strong if it weren't for her.
i painted mats for everyone. they were a big hit. everyone bragged & compared that theirs was the best. i love the personal touch. i think it shows the true meaning of christmas to put your own touch on a gift.
we'll be doing my family on sunday so i'll post all my gifts at once.
we're picking up the kids tomorrow. they'll be opening their gifts tomorrow night.
i've been meaning to find the time between painting & shopping to tell you we got to see the twins last sunday. we all got together at my dads. man, that was a trip! my dad has mellowed so much in the years. i can't remember as a girl ever sitting on my dads lap. it was just something not done. with the twins its so different. they climbed all over him & he just loves on them. its great to see. he actually played baby dolls with them & i can honestly say i've never seen him play dolls with anyone before. i think he's probably happier than he's ever been before. i guess his new wife has been good for him.
well, got a big day planned tomorrow. i need to hit the hay.
hope everyone had a very merry christmas. be safe.
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Slow Motion Rewind

note to farmers: i understand you need to haul your crap around from farm to farm but please! put! lights! on! your! trailers!
i had some work done on my car. turned out there was a problem with the bolts that was supposed to hold my calipar in place. like one was missing. so i had this horrible rattle going on in the front end. while the mechanic had my car i borrowed my mother-in-laws car. which really made me nervous anyway. i came to complete stops, looked both ways three times before i pulled out, kept to the speed limit & parked away from all the other cars. i was so careful. the last day i had it i was coming home & i've told you how my road is uphill with a lot of curves. not to mention its now dark when i come home. so i'm coming through the s's up the hill & i'm thinking how i'll be turning over the car in just a few minutes so i won't have to worry about something going wrong. when i came to a tight little curve. with a farm truck coming at me. the truck was in his lane. i was in my lane. the farmers trailer was also in my lane. with no lights on it so i really didn't see it until i was almost on top of the tire. the tire that was sticking out a foot from the trailer. the trailer that had no lights on it. i did manage to miss the damn trailer but i went straight to the bathroom when i got home. just to check. i did take the car home & i didn't mention that i almost wrecked it because of some stupid farm trailer. i also didn't mention that i almost shit my pants while driving the car. my mother-in-law is awesome.
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Games

my new car is still sick. the battery light keeps coming on. hubby cleaned the cables & took the battery to have it tested. it wasn't either of those possibilties. its a 12 & 1/2 volt battery & it measures 12 volts. we took the chance & took it the 140 miles round trip to pick up the kids anyway. i miss them too much to miss another weekend. to keep the kids awake on the way home hubby started the game of naming countries beginning with a & ending with z. when we got to letter c he offered the hint 'whats above the united states'? jammer replied 'CLOUDS'. yeah, he's the smartest. don't ya just love him?
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Possessions

how has it been 2 weeks since i last posted? how the hell have i missed so much of the last few months? i know. that evil damned facebook. i'm telling you once you start on that site its like a leach. theres no away from it. honestly its not the facebook itself. i only have like 90 friends so the wall isn't that busy. its the games associated with facebook. theres 'farmville' where you have a farm & have to plant seeds, wait for them to mature then harvest them. theres 11 different animals you have to do things to when they reach a certain maturity. everything does this anywhere from 4 hours to 4 days. you do have to check your wall to see if anyone has accomplished some ribbon or fertilized enough to offer a bonus. they share the wealth. then theres 'fishworld' that you have virtual tanks that you buy & sell fish. you decorate the tanks & visit your 'neighbors' to help maintain their tanks. you get bonus' for that too. not to mention 'mafia wars' where you fight other gang members & shake down rackets to earn money. 'yoville' where you live in an apartment that you dress to fit in & invite people to dance or box to make points. 'castle world', 'vampire wars', 'pirates', 'wizardry with harry potter', 'zoo' & jeez the list goes on & on. i didn't want to get involved with any of them but when some of my best friends begged me to join to at least gift to them. oh yeah, you can give gifts to all you neighbors. anyway, i couldn't say no to my friends. could i?
speaking of ocd...
my car has learned how to distract me too. that pretty dashboard. oh the lights. the pretty flashing lights. last night on my way home from work i stopped by the store. when i came out my car wouldn't start. after about an hour the jumper cables finally coaxed the car to a start & i jumped in & floored it towards home. about half way there, which is still 30 minutes from home, i flipped on my bright lights. see that pretty blue light that looks like a headlight? yeah, i know that light. its a calming blue but what is that yellowish orange light that says 'check engine'? i don't think thats good & theres a new bright red light i've never seen before. it kinda looks like a battery & i know that can't be good. about the time the yellowish orange light came on the teal colored mileage light came on that has only shown its retarded face about once a month since i got the car. i think its shy. now i'm beginning to think the car is possessed! maybe someone died in it & their spirit is still trying to hold onto its earthly existence. that could explain the shit going on with this car. but the facebook thing? its just a pain in the waazoo.
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