Monday, May 31, 2004

Memorial Day. It makes me think of all the people we've lost over the years. The first one that comes to mind is my mother. She died of a heart attack brought on by an ashma attack. She was only 46. She was the funniest & most loving woman I've ever known. She not only raised us as a single parent for many years but took in foster children. Because she said everyone deserves good memories and she hoped to leave some good memories in childrens lives that may not have any. She identified with needy kids cos she was raised poor. Mom had a hard life. She worked in a plastic company without any kind of face protection. They said the small particles of plastic floating around was what damaged her lungs. When I was a kid she would tell me to duck down in the car when she wanted to flirt. I never knew her father, he passed away long before I was ever conceived. Her mother is the only blood grandparent I ever knew. My dads parents were also gone before I was born. The next one is Waistdog. A well loved blogger that recently died of a heart attack as well. Also a very funny guy. I didn't know him but always enjoyed reading his rants & hilarious posts. When I was young & looking for a husband the first guy I ever was engaged to died suddenly. It was never revealed to me what they thought killed him. I finally married TRR. Who fell asleep in the car one morning waiting to go hunting. His favorite pasttime. It was a chilly morning & he layed down in the car to catch a few winks before daylight & left the car running. He had taken the back seat out of the little car while he was restoring it. The fumes seeped into the car & his dreams. For awhile I wondered if every guy I got involved with had any chance at having a life after hooking up with me. One of the next 3 is still alive. From there the list just grows & grows. Memorial day should last for at least a week & you should get that entire week off with pay. You'd never have time to visit all the graves you would like in one day. And you need all your money to buy flowers for each grave. So, in dedication to my Mom...I miss you & I love you. xoxoxox