Waiting To Exhale

..so to speak. sonny called this morning to let me know that he and honey drank together last night. you don't know this but thats bad news... always means a fight.
ixxie stayed home this weekend due to doing poorly in school. (she's had 7 days of school & has brought home 2 letters already. she's given 6 stars a day & for everything she fucks up she loses a star. she's managed to lose 24 of her 30 stars for the past week.) i'm sorry she has to see her mommy & whoever she's gonna live with fight. its a sad fact though. i don't see honey & sonny making it as a couple. she's gonna wind up with some other man. who knows, but i know he won't bow down to her & the stupid things she wants to fight about. every man needs a woman that isn't gonna try to be his mother. he asked me this weekend how old he was when i stopped covering his eyes for the naked scenes in tv. hell, i gave up when he turned 15. by then, i knew he had hidden books & besides if you have a good looking son you gotta know some woman, somewhere out there, is gonna throw herself at him. i had to actually drag some of the little teenage girls out of his room when it was time to go to bed. he was allowed to have company sleep on the couch but not in his room. my rule was i would not give him a place to procreate. he had to supply that on his own. but i can think of at least 3 girls i had to literally ask to remove herself from his bedroom. one i threw clear out of the house & one i told if i caught her off the couch again, she was out the door. honey has made the mistake of thinking she can control him. make him do things the way she wants them. she wants to change him. how many women have tried & failed? i'm not saying he won't compromise but he's 30 years old now & is kinda set in his ways. unless you can give him a reasonable argument for making a change he's not gonna concede. her demands are just way out there. i mean, what 30 year old isn't allowed to watch a naked woman on tv? isn't that a little too much to ask? you can't hardly watch a movie without a little t & a. at his age, he's seen & done pretty much what he wants to do as far as women are concerned & i can't believe she thinks she can limit him to looking at only her. he's tried to keep the peace by making a visible effort to look away when something shows up on tv. but this weekend they sat down to watch a movie that they rented & when it turned out to have naked women in it she ttthhhrrreeww her fit. i think the movie was 'house of a thousand corpses' for gods sake. they were dead women & she had a fit. how sick is she? that sonny looking at dead bodies might excite him to the point of checking out another woman with lust in his mind. i mean, a dead woman? does anyone else think thats just a little too insecure?
as often as he tells me he doesn't love honey i have to believe someday he'll find someone he does love & will have a happy home life for my grandkids & himself. i hate to know the kids get to witness the fighting. i can see sonny taking his son from her & moving on. (it's not fair to make that judgement, i know, so please don't chew on my ass over that statement.) sonny has worked hard for everything he has. he loves his son & all the girls. he'd take ixxie if he thought he could. he's always given 100+% in his relationships & deserves to get the same in return. he just wants to live a nice, decent, calm life, with a happy, normal woman & raise healthy, happy kids. i don't think that unreasonable.
i pray that god sees it that way too.
gotta go,
later