Wednesday, August 18, 2004

A Letter To Dominic

Hi Big Guy,
I have wished for you most of my life. I've always known that I would love you so hard that it would hurt. To the point of not hardly being able to stand it.
I dreamed that you would look like your daddy. That you would have a bright and inquisitive nature. Curiousity for all that stood before you. Always ready to learn. You'd be smart and maybe become a Nobel Prize Winner or a great leader for a good cause. You'd dazzle everyone with your sweet personality and quick wit. In my dreams you are always the center of attention. You're just too personable & intelligent not to be. Sensitivity & compassion is no stranger for you. You want to help the world and the world responds to you with as much adoration as you deserve. With a twinkling smile and a strong shoulder always there for whoever needs you. You would be the perfect addition to this world.
I had given up on being a grandmother though. I didn't think my dream would ever come true. But to my utter delight God saw fit to grace us with your existence.
What the future holds for you is still to be discovered. But from the day you were brought into this world I've know it is to be a great future. You had to be taken C-section because you would just not turn around. It seemed like you didn't want to let go of that warm wonderful place you had lived for 9 months. Refusing to turn your smiling face around & determined to come out backwards. Maybe you hadn't finished your plans for the world yet. Or made up your mind as to how you would change all that is bad. Maybe you wanted the world to know that it could just kiss your ass cos it had met its match. Look out I come!!!
When I held you in my arms for the first time and introduced myself I knew that anything was possible. You squeezed my finger and looked at me with a wide eyed wonder. I was so awed. It made me feel so ready to teach you everything I could. I want to show you the world. I want you to know love like no other. I want for you the safest, most perfect world to grow up in. As long as I am capable of giving these things to you I want you to know I will be there. When you are ready to branch out & take the world by the horns I want you to know that anything I can do I am there for you.
I love you with all my heart. I hope you always know that. I hope you always remember that. I hope you always remember me in a special nook of your heart. That is where you will always be for me. My Dominic nook. Where I will always tuck the great memories that we share together. The love & the bond that will always be just ours. I pray that it just keeps getting bigger everyday.
It is the same way with your daddy. He has been the love of my life for so many years that I wouldn't want to live without him. We have such a special bond that nothing could ever break. I've taught him to love & respect both who he is & those who touch his heart. And always reach for the greatest levels in all he does. He knows how proud I am of him & his accomplishments. I think he will be the wonderful father that I raised him to be. Now the two of you complete me. I am the happiest I could ever dream to be.
I want you to know all these things. Above all, I want you to be the happiest, most complete, well adjusted being you can be. With confidence to take on anything you want to accomplish. Never to know defeat. Forever knowing you have the support of your family in all you do.
I love you Dominic.