Moods

my younger sister, nipper & i have been chatting via email through the week. nipper has been in a mood & we tried to pinpoint what it was that was putting her in the blue mood. i think my moms birthday being friday the 13th was a big part of it. we both still miss her very much & her birthday always brings us down. its amazing that we can put up any kind of front at all as much as we’ve been through. even more amazing is the fact that moms husband, who wouldn’t keep a job & take care of her, is still alive & taking damn good care of himself on our tax money. with my sons help he lives like a king.
you know i understand that friday the 13th is supposed to be an unlucky day. but in my mind it can’t be too bad. for one, it was the day mom was born. that was a very good day for me. otherwise, i wouldn't be here to talk about it. for another, i spit a piece of gum out & it landed on a tip of a branch. it stuck just like i glued it there. i wasn't aiming for the branch but as luck would have it. now how many times could that happen? it has to be like being struck by lightning & only a once in a lifetime kinda thing. makes me think maybe i should be playing the lottery more often. afterall, you can’t win if you don’t play. from now on, i am absolutely playing on friday the 13th of any month.
later.